I haven’t met anyone I’ve genuinely, really liked or admired as a person. What I thought felt like love was rlly just lust. And maybe I settle for people I kinda like because I don’t know if I’ll meet someone who really does it for me. Or maybe because everyone puts so much emphasis on being in love that it rubs off on me and I’m willing to give a mediocre dude a chance just for the sake of having someone there.
But why waste time on someone who isn’t really what I want? It’s emotionally exhausting trying to make something work that just wont work no matter what you do.
I’d rather just do me and maybe one day someone rlly cool will show up or maybe not I’ll be ok either way.